EACH STEP THAT I'M TAKING IS A STEP TO MY SOUL

Singapore Wins Bid To Host Inaugural Youth Olympics!!!

GREAT NEWS!!!
@7.30pm

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had my translation oral exam this morning…eeks, dun tink i will score good grades for that…

went to the sentosa flowers 2008 on monday (11th feb) with SF…take into consideration i was just using a very simple sha gua digital camera (n considered old model already loh), i am quite happy and satisfied to get the below fotos…

photography is now a past dream for me lah…i nearly became an assistant photographer 12 years ago…haha…but due to reality, i needed a higher paid job to contribute to the family…
sigh…maybe i would have become a top-notch photographer already by now, if i had chosen that path…who knows?

life is like that loh…u always wonder if u had taken another path, what would have happened to u? when u were young, there were many paths in front of u for u to choose…i just feel a bit 遗憾 that i had to give up the path i most wanted to choose because i had no choice…

我没有选择因为我必须养家…对于那些家境不错，根本不需承担任何家庭负担的人来说，他们当然可以毫无顾忌、理直气壮地去追寻他们的理想…所以当听到或读到这些人说什么有梦想就要去追求 blah blah 的，我心里是有点排斥的…也许是因为我没办法做到的关系吧？有多少人是寄人篱下，看人脸色，又是家庭里唯一可以做工赚钱的？那些不是的人是幸运的。因此，我认命。不是说你的命掌握在你手里，你必须自己去创造这么简单的…当你身边有一个人，她唯一能依靠的人就只有你，你能这样子说走就走吗？一个人的命不是只属于他自己的，有些人的命是和其他人的命紧密地牵绊在一起的…这些人的命所肩负的无形的压力是一个外人很难理解的重担…因为这样的重担，他们的命已变成不是只属于他们自己的了…

a tarot reader once said to me, 我本应该是个远走高飞的人，但我的命格里有一个很重的“责任感”因素牢牢地牵住了我…and she said it with an unbelievable tone, becos my “freedom number” is so strong that she did not understand why i am still in singapore, until she saw my “responsibility number” which is even stronger…very conflicting numbers…what a pity, she said…

yes, what can i say? what a pity…

finally received my course package liao…
ooh…the notes look difficult…but since i have made this decision…i must persevere…
wah piang…the essay topic sounds chim…”Food as Medicine”…
goodness…will i ever be able to accomplish such an essay???

already starting to get stressed liao wor…jiatlat…

packing some stuff just now…trying to clear them lah…
i always have the habit of scribbling something i read or saw on bits of papers here and there…
so here is one:

“Right now, the person’s hand that you hold, the chance of you meeting that person is like a miracle. Even when you go into the light, don’t let go of that hand.”

it was true to me in the past…each time i was holding on to jm’s hand, each time i would feel it was like a miracle…but that’s all in the past liao lah…

next is this review writeup on the movie “happy birthday”, 《生日快乐》…torn out from i-weekly…it is written by 杨丽玲…some excerpts from the review:

“There are things i care about everyday but can only say it once a year.”
- 有些事每天都挂念着，却只能在每一年的这一天，说一次。

“很多时候，关怀不能随心表达。因已不知道可以用什么身份这么做。”

“生日是很好的借口。佯装着若无其事，借机透露自己的感情。每一年的生日祝福，是唯一可以知道对方还好好地，也是让对方知道他还存在自己心中的方式。”

“《生日快乐》说的是这个时代不知算不算爱的爱。”

“错过，其实未必是宿命。或许，是选择…”

“真实爱情或许只存在一刹那。大抵这个虚幻年代有着太多的不确定，让人感到不安，爱情也变得愈来愈叫人难以依靠。”

“当比好朋友更好一点的朋友？情侣会分手，好朋友才是一辈子的？
说穿了，不过是不敢/不愿/不能爱。”

“不想承担的是情感的重量，却狡猾地被爱着、宠着。”

“这些年过得不好不坏只是好像少了一个人存在。而我渐渐明白你仍然是我不变的关怀。
有多少爱可以重来，有多少人值得等待。
当爱情已经桑田沧海是否还有勇气去爱。”

- 电影里小南和小米的主题曲《有多少爱可以重来》